Friday, May 13, 2005

The great Puzzle

We're near the end of our present journey. It's hard to believe our graduation day is nearly hear. I don't feel as if i'm ready. There's been so much turmoil this year that it's hard to believe that it's about to come to an end. Through my time in high school there have been many ups and many downs. When high school first started classes and grades were the last things on my mind, but i'm glad that through the years i have become a much better student. I also used to kinda be a loner, i had Marc and to me that was pretty much all i needed, although it was always great to have Ann along. But when high school started things just didn't fit into place. I guess for me high school has been one enormous puzzle. It started out appearing to be something that i could never finish, there were too many different pieces for them to all work in harmony. But like every puzzle you have to look at the general pictue of the puzzle. Only problem is that i never had the box so i didn't know exactly how it was supposed to go, but i had a general idea. There different parts of the puzzle; Family, Studies, Extra-curriculars, Friends, and the border to my puzzle was god. With out having all of these together the puzzle isn't complete. But trying to manage all at the same time was a feat in itself.

I always like to begin my puzzle from the outside in. So the first developed part of my life and this puzzle was God, he was the foundation from which i would be able to do all that i do. The next part was difficult because i couldn't just work on each part individually i had to do all the parts at the same time. My first couple years i struggled, but it was during these difficult times that i put together the majority of my friens section. My friends were with me through thick and thin, and i tried to be there for them whenever possible. With each new day they added another piece, strengthening our friendships. I also got the foundation for my extra-curriculars, I may not have done very well, but it established a base for all of my later endeavors. My studies portion was having a little bit of troubles developing, i had to force a few pieces into place, which in the end made my studies part look slightly less grand than i intended. My family portion, even though the area it had to cover was spreading, remained strong.

Over my junior and senior years i finally started to get the hang of how to put the pieces together. My extra-curriculars were being put together like magic, ever piece was fitting in place. My family portion also was fitting great, even with the added pieces that had to be adjusted here towards the end. My studies couldn't have gone better, i was doing incredibly well and gaining in the ranks. And my friends, nobody could have predicted how this segment would have turned out. Not only did my friendships strengthened but i gained friends from other towns, i actually became social. And my "long-distance" friends became even closer. The puzzle is now almost complete and the image is nearly finished. Now that i look back i wish that i could have changed a few things, but i realize that would have changed the entire picture. I thank all of you that helped me put together this puzzle, and made it look so much better in the end.

Now with only a few pieces to go i look back and am thankful for every up, but also am thankful for the downs, they made more of an impact on my life than any up could. Lessons learned the hard way are usually the lessons more fully learned. I now feel ready to progress through life. Not beginning a new puzzle, but making the one i have 3D. Making it even more impressive than it is right now, but not losing any of the values i've learned from my studies, extra-curriculars, family, friends, and God.

To all of you i wish the greatest success, hoping that all of you can look at the image that you've helped create and be proud. I hope that you all have learned as much from your own puzzles as i've learned from mine. In the end our images aren't that much different, but each has it's own flair and spice. Thank you for adding your piece to my puzzle.

Reid

(Crap, i didn't intend for it to be this long, sorry.)

3 Comments:

Blogger Steph said...

Good Post, Old Fellow. Irreplaceable like Korean Cornflakes (see #2)

Okay, your post reminded me of 2 things essentially.

1)How Sarah's mom kept asking us if we we hit the post-grad depression yet (trust me, it does come sometime in the two weeks after graduation)

and 2)of a somewhat related post I made back in January (I had to go look it up--very last one, which means first, on the page of January Archives)and this whole great big cloud (or great big clouded question) has been hanging overhead, since, well probably since this time last year, for me.

It's just kinda scary this big lingering un-answerable question. That's all life is, but for the first 18 years of your life, you have this leash on it, or it has this leash on you, that keeps you re-assured, knowing that each year you will return to this routine of starting a new school year, catching up with friends again, and starting the new process all over again. Untill that last year, when you know it isn't the same because it is the last time it will be happening. Although it really doesn't hit you like that untill the end of the year, and you don't have that same feeling of kinda being sad cause the year is over and you miss your friends, but this time KNOWING that it isnt going to be fixed in a couple months. That there wont ever be that "returning to normal". It's like all these puzzle pieces of friendships, feelings, and memories are thrown up in the air, and you just kinda float around them, discovering new pieces that have been added to your puzzle, sometimes revisting old familiar ones, that haven't been discarded or lost. It's like this is your puzzle for the rest of your life. And maybe your task isn't to put it together over the years, but let all the pieces fall into place and hope that over the years you've been shaping these pieces and and painting them so that when they do all finally come together you have a masterpiece that sums up the best of your life, and includes all the greatest moments, and some of the worst moments and mistakes you made but were necessary in making sure the right pieces of the puzzle ended up where they belong.

I don't know what any of this means, or if I was making an accurate metaphor, but I didn't mean for it to be this long. I was just gonna post the 2 things I thought of. Now I feel all wierd. But I have faith that everything will work out and I know that I, myself, will be making an effort to keep in touch with everyone. As long as that is a goal of some of the others, I'm sure things will be good in the future. Of course nothing will ever be the same, but people move on and evolve with their relationships, and hopefully the best of some of those awaits.

Don't waste too much time dwelling on the past though. Some of the most exciting times are just around the corner, and believe me you should feel more excited about college than afraid, haha. And be excited for all the fun you'll have this summer. *cough* road trip... ;)

8:54 AM  
Blogger Steph said...

*Cough* Hmmm, since this post was the end of high school and you have since moved on and started college, I believe it is time for a new post my friend ;)

Talk about your fancy wood floors or something.

1:50 PM  
Blogger Steph said...

You know...

if you updated your blog, maybe I wouldn't be driven (by boredom) to post such worthless little ditties on the group blog....you know just a thought ;)

8:39 PM  

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